Thoughts on Chemical Dependency

So the last two nights I've gotten a total of 4 hours of sleep (if you count the time while I was pressing 'snooze' on my alarm clock). At about 3 this morning I realized that I'd had tea each of the two nights. May I state just now for the record that I hate green tea, and I'm not sure I'll ever drink it again.

Because I've had plenty of time in the last couple of days to think, I wanted to do something productive, and have hatched several evil schemes which some of you may be enlisted to participate in. (Just a heads up.)

I got to talk to the SAT students today about essay writing. I'm not sure what they teach them at school. It's very funny. They had lots of questions. There is one student who reminds me of Jabez. He keeps bringing up outlandish examples; wanting to use Hitler as an example of good leadership. I told him he's welcome to do that, but he doesn't have time to defend himself in the 25 minutes the SAT gives you. He's also very literal and cuts things down to essentials. I remember being like that about essay writing a long time ago. But they beat it out of me over the years. Maybe that's why I hate formal writing - I feel like it has nothing substantial to it because I never felt free to put any of myself into anything I wrote for school. Hmm.

So my thoughts on chemical dependency are thus: I believe it may be possible to be too independent of chemicals. For example, were I accustomed to drinking soda or coffee, perhaps I would not have spent the last two nights staring at the inside of my eyelids (I actually did that, every little while I would look at the clock to see if I could possibly have been asleep, the results were not encouraging). The thing is, I don't like drugs. They make my head hurt and make me feel all crazy and jittery. I guess I'd get over it eventually, but it just seems like, if I'm happier without, why force myself into those kinds of habits? Sorry, I'm really just rambling at this point. If you have any thoughts though, please let me know.

Also, if you have any evil plans you would like to suggest, or just share, I would be most interested to hear them. Mine mostly include motorcycles and I'd be happy to tell you about them as well.